6 MONTHS!!

It's been 6 months and my feelings for Richard still haven't changed. We've been through alot and when i say alot i mean ALOT. We've argued sooo many times i lost count and even so i still love him ohh sooo much. And the best part is, we proved everyone wrong who thought we wouldn't last this long.

Looking back...

Loving Richard has been the best feeling i ever had. Most people wonder why i'm even with Richard cuz he's soo crazy n stuff but it should be really obvious why i'm with him. I love him cuz he's extremely spontaneous, hilarious, a complete genius, and cuz he's super cute =). But seriously, the hing i love most about him is how caring he is. I know sometimes he can be really mean or a real jackass but everyone has their bitchy/asshole moments. If it wasn't for Richard's caring for me soo much i don't know where i'd be right now. He's seen me at my weakest and has always picked me up. He's more than my boyfriend; he's my bestfriend. So to sum up, ILoveYouRichard<3

ps: sorry for writing this a few days late =)

2 MONTHS!!

Well let me tell you what happened. We 1st went to the movies to see Failure to Launch. It was ok. And then we went to Barnes Noble..we went into the sports section and we found a martial arts section and well he was teaching me martial arts. THEN we went to for Psychology books when we see these sex books. Of course we were lookin at them and then my mom came in.

THEN we bought one of the pscology books and took the test at home. I beat him haha. Then he left and that was it.

*How do I begin to explain how much you mean to me? You've done so much for me before we were even together. You were by my side always. You were my shoulder to cry on. You made me strong when i was weak. Even when we hated eachother, you were still my shoulder to cry on. Even before that, we didn't even know eachother and you still gave me your shoulder to cry on. You're more than my boyfriend. You're my bestfriend..my brother..and i truly believe that God made you for me, and i'm so happy he did because i don't know how i could be living my life without you.*

So yeah even though its been 2 months you mean alot to me and i don't think i can manage if i ever lost you. Oh boy..i'd be worse then how i was when i lost Nikko. The point is i love you, you dork. Don't ever for get it. I don't care how impossible i am to you or how much of an asshole you are to me I LOVE YOU.

1 Month+ Valentine's Day

2/11/06: It was nice and sunny in the beginning. Richard came over and then we went to the mall. We first went to Dick's Sporting Goods. We were looking for hockey stuff but we couldn't find it. All we could find was football..basketball..baseball and a trampoline XD. Then we went by the hunting area and found the hockey section. So for a good 10 minutes we were playing hocky.

Then we left and went to Mandees but first Rich wanted to go to Hollister. I decided not to go in and wait for him and then he comes running out. So we're running and i ask him "why are we running?" and he says "i went in and said 'you're gay!'" So yeh we stop running and then we go into mandees. I get these 2 shirts and i'm goin to buy them wit my gift card when the lady said there was no money thus making me use the money i have left over to buy random things. To sum up i'm currently broke and bein ripped off. So 20 mintues later i tell my ma and she goes into the store to explain the story of how i have 50 buck sin there and then they put the money in there and everythin is good again.

But then we go to my house and like an hour later his dad comes and then he has to leave =(

2/14/06: Well i'm currently the best chick ever cuz i made my man a gigantic cookie shaped as a heart and it says, in icing, i love you. Oh and btw it tastes freakin good. So yeh, suck on that bitches. Can't beat my present XP

Anyway i also got him a shirt that said "Do you think i'm sexy?", a reese's pieces cup shaped like a heart, and a card. Yup but his gift was soo sweet!! He got me flowers and a monkey that says "i love you" =)

Well thats bout it              I love you, Rich

WOW it's been 4ever! Well let me fill u in on what happened..

Me and Richard are goin out again. Yes, i kno..."WTF?!" but alwell i love him so deal wit it. Anyway this all happened on the 11th. It's been 2 weeks now..yes so far so good. It's been crazy for a while but now everything is working out.

Well it all started wit me likin him first..i didn't think much of it i thought it would jus fade away..but it didn't i really liked him. So yeh its the 1st week of January and i'm dying here thinkin to myself how fucked up i am. He has a girlfriend i shouldn't be likin him!!!!! Then the 6th came..his 1st home match. His girl ddn't go cuz she was sick but i went (along wit faye miguel n susan). He won and omg i was so nervous for him..no seriously i was shakin XD. But anyway, ever since that day things changed. Like we stopped callin eachother ateh and lil kuya (we were so close that we were practically brother n sister).

ANYWAY, soo in that weekend he started askin me who i liked and i kept tryin to avoid it..but eventually he figured out it was him on that sunday. I had to confess cuz i don't like lying to him. So yeh i said "its ok if u don't like me baq..i jus want to be as close as we were before" all he said was don't wry bout it. No "i jus wanna be friends" no "i like you too" it was kind of disappointing. Cuz i wanted a damn answer!! >.<

So on monday rich told me to ask miguel for his answer or w/e it was. So i kept askin miguel but miguel wouldn't tell me unless i calmed down and well obviously that ddn't happen. So all day i was twitching. Then finally afterschool richard comes by and i'm walkin next to him thinkin to myself "stay calm. .what're u expecting?!" and then he says "do u want to kno what i think" and i said "yes" but in my head i was like "YES DAMNIT TELL ME NOW!!!!!!" and then he says "i like you too" and i ddn't know how to react..i was happy, trying to remain calm, and twitching. Of course i was like the happiest chick in the world. When rich left i jumped on miguel (he almost fell ^_^*).

Then Tuesday he broke up wit her and yes i did feel bad..well partly i felt bad. Half of me was like awww poor kid and the other part was like YESSSSSS but u'kno. Then Wednesday he calls and asks me to be his girl i say yes and then its official. So yeh ever since then we've been hated by the flips and then not hated anymore. So now after 2 weeks of goin out everythin seems to be good again. What a relief...Well thats bout it. I wonder when i'll update this again. . .

Wow i haven't written in here in ages!! Well here's what happened:

Spent most of my summer thinking. Yeh i kno, what a waste of time but that thinking made me a bit mature. Made me learn from my mistakes and helped me move on. *sigh*...i think too much.

Well lets see..in the beginning of July i hung out wit faye..faye is the new chunky XP. Then later on i hungout wit drea..she's sexay XD..Robert..ehh he's still the same..Max..new buddy ^.^ Susan..she's PRETTY!!! Lately we've been pushin ppl down hills in shopping carts. Thats how bored we are. But even so its still fun! Basically i just hang out wit my friends and end up doin somethin stupidly fun.

Well...thats bout it, so bye XD

  I hate breathing ;; Because every breath
I breathe - - Proves that I can live without you </3